Can I just be wrapped in a blanket and fed grapes and capers forever while having my hair stroked? Like FUCK I don't have the energy to improve my CV, or to start dealing with rejections, or to decide what I want to do with my life really.
I think I know what my plan is for the next few years but who knows it might not go that way, and then what?
I haven't even started looking for a job yet. I'd say I've been busy but like I've been busy getting drunk...but that's what you're meant to do right? Please don't start telling me how much earlier I should have been looking for jobs, I have been, I just haven't found anything I can apply for yet.
What if I never do?!
I'm going to be graduating with a 2:1 in biochemistry. Not quite what I wanted. I at least wanted a first in my 3rd year project, something I gave up everything for and still fell short. Another thing I'm too average at to really excel in. Now what?
If nothing else I have learnt that people and this world are pretty shitty where we can't be our true selves safely. I've also learnt how men really can't let go of their egos. It would be hilarious if those sort of men weren't also the sorts abusing women. But I've also learnt that I don't have to put up with that kinda shit. I'm my own person, I can say no, even if it's not what they want to hear, if it's what I want, that's what matters.
My plans for the immediate future are to pack up and move home while also updating my CV and trying to figure out what jobs I could apply for and whether I actually want to do a masters or not or if I just wanna move to France...
Anyone else just finished uni and struggling to know what to do? If anyone has been in this situation before as well I'm sure the rest of us would LOVE some guidance! ;) maybe even a cheeky guest post? Ok I'll stop pushing it.