Wednesday, 22 June 2016

Thoughts on Finishing Uni

Can I just be wrapped in a blanket and fed grapes and capers forever while having my hair stroked? Like FUCK I don't have the energy to improve my CV, or to start dealing with rejections, or to decide what I want to do with my life really.
think I know what my plan is for the next few years but who knows it might not go that way, and then what?

I haven't even started looking for a job yet. I'd say I've been busy but like I've been busy getting drunk...but that's what you're meant to do right? Please don't start telling me how much earlier I should have been looking for jobs, I have been, I just haven't found anything I can apply for yet.

What if I never do?! 

I'm going to be graduating with a 2:1 in biochemistry. Not quite what I wanted. I at least wanted a first in my 3rd year project, something I gave up everything for and still fell short. Another thing I'm too average at to really excel in. Now what?

If nothing else I have learnt that people and this world are pretty shitty where we can't be our true selves safely. I've also learnt how men really can't let go of their egos. It would be hilarious if those sort of men weren't also the sorts abusing women. But I've also learnt that I don't have to put up with that kinda shit. I'm my own person, I can say no, even if it's not what they want to hear, if it's what I want, that's what matters. 

My plans for the immediate future are to pack up and move home while also updating my CV and trying to figure out what jobs I could apply for and whether I actually want to do a masters or not or if I just wanna move to France... 

Anyone else just finished uni and struggling to know what to do? If anyone has been in this situation before as well I'm sure the rest of us would LOVE some guidance! ;) maybe even a cheeky guest post? Ok I'll stop pushing it.

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6 comments :

  1. It feels like the stress is never going to come to a halt does it? I mean you have projects, exams and then CVs to deal with. I have professional work experience next year and I am already terrified that nobody will take me for placement. Hopefully someone will come back to you and give you some tips and advice.

    Ellen,
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  2. I can really feel how burdened you are from this post :c But its refreshing because it is honest. As a college student, I have moments where in I panic just thinking about ACTUALLY graduating and having to do.... something. I hope you stay strong and firm. Never forget to love yourself~

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  3. Move to France, it'll be fun! I already had my PhD lined up for when I finished because I had a bit of a breakdown before the end of uni and couldn't bare the thought of not having a job... in hindsight, I should have probably spent more thinking about what I wanted to do. But then I would have had to move back home and god no.

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  4. Pretty much! I just hope I find a job I like while I'm figuring out what I want to do with my life! You'll find a placement I'm sure! Good luck sweetie! xo

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  5. Its a scary time! thank you for the comment and support lovely <3 xo

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  6. I hope I still can after brexit *cries*. Aha wow you were so keen ;) I understand though, I'm lucky I get on so well with my family and my mam is super supportive (I already ruined a frying pan and she's taking it in her stride lol). I want to earn money now, I'm fed up of being a poor student to be honest! xo

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