Tuesday, 8 December 2015

Mental Health || Stress

I have a few posts written up in a notebook but I just don't feel like typing them up and sorting through photos. It's too much work at the moment. I'm stressed to fuck. Anxiety and dermatillomania have reared their ugly heads again lately. AND I had a UTI which I'm still feeling the effects of, but I'm not even sure if it's still the UTI or the anxiety (needing to wee a lot is a symptom of anxiety).

When I'm not doing uni work I feel anxious. I dunno why, but studying is my hibernation. It de stresses me, gives me something to focus on. At the same time I'm stressed because of all the uni work I've had recently. So much coursework... 
I'm worried about my health, because of the things I've mentioned, and I feel like I'm on the edge of an emotional breakdown. I'll probably have my traditional break down de stress cry as soon as I get back to my parents' house. It's like everything I hold in just releases, which sucks (and sorry to my dear family) but I always feel better after. I know family time over Christmas will do me good, even if I do have another three sets of coursework, plus my thesis to be working on over the hols. I'm apparently so worried about my health 'cos I just took a break from writing this to look up stomach ulcers.

Going home for Christmas should sort me out.


  1. It's really not a nice feeling when it's like you've got a ton of coursework piling up... Especially before Christmas!! I genuinely hate how it's normally the time when you need to be revising for exams or doing essays :( I hope you're feeling a bit better soon. Time at home normally sorts me out too! xx

    Beth | Alphabeth

  2. *hugs you FOREVER* Your health is the most important thing. I really hope coming home helps you out, and just know if you ever need to talk & offload you never need to hesitate to drop me a message :)
    Maeve // Thrift O'Clock

  3. I used to always bury myself in my uni work... until I would have too much of it, that I would then get stressed about the work and stressed about everything. I hope that the holidays will do you some good, some time to get away from uni, from certain people and just time to just be.

    I never understood why uni's set so much work over the holidays, I guess it's because you have more time, but still, it sucks.

    Hopefully the Florida trip will help too! Some nice warm sunshine!

  4. I guess that's just third year, forever coursework lolz. Thank you, I feel better after a few days of absolutely no science! My mam told me I needed to really, too much science brain haha. I feel more refreshed already, and ready to get stuck back into coursework :) xo

  5. Thank you Maeve! You're so sweet :') I'm feeling refreshed already after a few days break from science haha! Same to you too, just in case you didn't know already, you're a supergirl and I always have time for you! xo

  6. That's literally me rn. Well, not literally, literally me like four days ago. I've had a total break from all things science, I feel refreshed! I've even read a whole Peter James thriller. It was pretty rubbish tbh, but nice to read some trashy gore haha. 'From certain people' ah yes. I feel good for getting some space there too haha!

    I don't know, 3rd year is just manic I guess. To be fair, I think at least one of the bits of coursework set over xmas is usually set early in the year but the unit coordinator and lecturer got very ill at the start of this year and it doesn't look like he'll be back :(

    Florida and sunshine are helping! It's amazing what a bit of warm sunshine can do for my mood!