Saturday, 22 August 2015

Burnt Out

A little bit. Not really. I mean, I can cope with being busy, I love it! I like to think I thrive off it, but I think my happiness thrives on it, less so my success... It must be the mess and living out of suitcases again, although I try to convince myself I love that kind of life, I think I would if I had less stuff to lug around with me.
I'm gonna do that new thing everyone is talking about from some new book everyone is talking about where you take each thing and you can only keep it if it brings you joy (except essentials I guess like a toilet brush or those slightly blood stained knickers you save for your period). I, for some unknown reason, still own things from both exes, and actually none of it brings me joy (except maybe a Harry Potter charm bracelet). Why do men insist on buying jewellery?! I feel bad if I don't keep it, but really it's just sitting stuffed at the back of a drawer and I need less clutter in my life. Saying that, by the time I'm done there will still be too much clutter, but it will be happy clutter!

Now I have to find the time to do this. And to redecorate my bedroom at my parents' house. It's not that I'm not enjoying life right now, I am, there just always seems to be something more I want to do. I've struggled updating here over summer while doing work experience, but I was also planning other projects I want to start soon, but can I even cope?! I feel I should be able to, there's that saying 'we have the same number of hours in a day as Beyonce' which actually makes me feel like poop not inspired...

I can't wait to get back into a routine, I'm good at routine, which makes me sound boring, but being in a routine helps me be more spontaneous, does that make sense? As long as I'm on top of everything, I have the time and brain juice to be spontaneous, if I'm all frazzled then nope. Just nope.

I have so many ideas and things I want to do including making things with clay, writing a novel, starting (another) new blog, travelling, and climbing Mount Kilimanjaro. That's just a few recent ones that I can't get out of my head. I am genuinely going to start making things with clay though, I don't think I always have the patience for adult colouring books, clay is more... hands on.

And now I'm running out of steam for this blog post and all the other ideas I have and I just want to sit outside with a cuppa (or fizzy wine... or a G&T, or maybe a Cosmopolitan *shrugs*) and not even instagram it.

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